The following is another heartfelt excerpt from my upcoming book…Today I am especially thinking about my grandmother, Sylvia Edith Goldman, who is my guiding angel. My grandmother left us five years ago today, yet I feel her presence every day. She was one of my greatest influences in my life. She loved me deeply and unconditionally, and we used to joke about who loved whom more.

Grandma, I love you more. Thank you for being a constant source of inspiration to me.


“It is with the deepest gratitude, and love that I offer my thanks to so many loving people who took the time, and continue to take the time to lovingly guide me throughout my wellness journey of recovery from Substance Use Disorder, and Mental Health Disorders.

I have been deeply blessed by so many beautiful souls to guide me, support me, and love me, and so I offer a warm blanket of gratitude to you, and you know who you are.

It is because of you that I have evolved, and grown exponentially, and have been blessed to have the opportunity, daily, to pay it forward. My wellness journey, is due in great part, to your loving patience, and guidance.

To my loving children…Matthew, Nicole, Olivia, and my soul daughter, Sarah, and Matt Friedson, my loving son-in-law…

I dedicate this book to you. You are the reason and inspiration behind my successful recovery. It was due solely to the thought of each of you that gave me the strength on April 3, 2013, to ask for help to save my life. I awoke from an overdose after being “out” for 2 days and realized on this day that if I took another handful of pills, you would be left without a mother, and I couldn’t bear the thought of you grieving my death, and never recovering from the loss. 

You saved my life. I continue to live each day with each of you in my heart, and at the forefront of my mind, and this keeps me present, grateful, determined, disciplined and dedicated to my recovery, to helping others, and most importantly, to being the mom the you deserve. I live each day to offer you all of my love, compassion, support, guidance, and TIME, at any time that you need it, or want it. What I am most grateful for is your forgiveness and understanding of the disease that I lived with for 40 years that nearly took my life, and that which affected the dynamic of our family. It is due to your unconditional love and willingness to rebuild our relationship, as well as your respect, and all of the times now that you call me seeking guidance of your own, and offering so much love through constant connection that keeps me so grateful, and thriving in my recovery. I finally understand what it means to be a mom, and although I am not perfect, I have taken on the role with grace and eagerness to evolve, learning along the journey, and feeling proud of this most important accomplishment. I love you to the moon and back…always and forever.

To my loving grandparents, Charles and Sylvia Goldman, who were my angels on earth, and I know are my guiding angels in Heaven…YOU are the reason I AM love. You have instilled in me a deep and profound wealth of love and compassion which I long to share with others. You are the reason I believe in love. You are the reason I feel loved. You are the reason that I seek to share kindness and empathy. You were a constant living example of love. I dedicate, this book, to you, with deep love, gratitude, and in the memory of the profound love and joy that we shared. Your love continues to sustain me each and every day.

To my lifelong friends, Bill, Vicky and Joey Kelder. We have lived through it all. You have been a constant loving support for decades, and have been here on my recovery journey being thoroughly involved and encouraging me since the day I entered the hospital to seek wellness and recovery. You have never given up on me, and have epitomized the true meaning of friendship. Your love and support continue to be a source of strength.

To my loving friend, Miriam Moccio…We are as close as sisters. We have been together as friends for decades, and have watched our children grow up together. You have consistently offered me loving guidance and support throughout our friendship, and most especially throughout my recovery. You “sense” when I need you, and you reach out to offer support. Thank you for being the unpaid “therapist” on call throughout to guide me lovingly back to  balance. You have been a constant source of strength.


“I am a survivor. I am not my past defined by a disease that temporarily altered my being. I am a warrior who now holds the space for others to experience their authentic selves in the present moment. This is a blessing and a gift. I am here as a vessel to usher the boat away from the shore. The waves do not hold me back as I have learned to navigate, and swim right into the waves. I’ve learned to go with the flow, and to feel the sun lighting my way on my journey with pride and peace, as I continue to experience the ripples and waves in unchartered territory. I continue to evolve poised for the next rush of waves with certainty of my strength, and always grateful for new opportunities to grow. I am a survivor.”


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