“For me, the most difficult part of change is the realization that nothing will ever be the same. That nothing was as it seemed. Time and observation have brought to light reality, so that my perception can no longer exist in the dark.

Sometimes, I feel the visceral pain of loss. I allow myself to feel it, and then try to move through the following moments…one moment at a time. I try to remind myself that the only person I truly have…is me, and I am okay. I attempt to practice radical acceptance, but this profound loss is ever present, and painful. I do my very best.

I have come at this challenge from every angle, to no avail. I’ve tried to love her through, tough love her through, beg, cry, and plead her through. Most importantly, I have tried to lead by example for her through it all. To no avail…

As the saying goes, “I did not cause it, I can not control it, I can not cure it.” I can, however, continue to take care of me, and those loved ones who willingly and lovingly stay connected.

“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”

Sat Nam,



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